I am so sorry I have not written to you before now. It has been a wild ride these last 10 months!! I will tell you what has been happening, but you might want to grab a coffee or tea for yourself and get comfortable! You will be in for the long haul!
Starting Jan 4/11, I went into a plastic surgeon’s office and had a cancerous skin tumor ….the size of a pimple…..removed from above my left eye. I had six stitches and a black eye for two weeks!! It was bi -oped and it came back as a blastoma which is a good type of cancer!!! I guess if you are to get one, this is the mildest type to get.
Then on Jan 14/11 I started to write a novel. Well, actually, I started to write two novels at the same time. You know me….multi tasking everything! So, I have almost completed one book now and my other one is about halfway complete. I am more into my Vampire themed novel at the moment. And it will eventually be about 4 or 5 books….a saga. I really like it because I am making it different then the ones that are out there.
My fluff novel is about a rock star and it is kind of a love story that takes place over 30 years. It is based on someone that I have admired and have met and it is a fantasy that I have dreamed. So it is my fluff novel….mostly for fun and honing my writing skills.
Then in Feb we ran out of firewood and gas from our gas well. It happens every winter…the gas thing….but the wood is supposed to be cut and stored all summer. Garrett has a problem with this and this year, he really got it drove home.
Because we were so cold in the house,, we both got sick in March. I got pneumonia and Garrett got the flu. We do everything together, so he got the flu at the same time I got sick. We were coughing so much that we had to stand up together, wrap our arms around each other’s ribcages and cough. We both thought we had broken ribs from coughing so much!!
I have had pneumonia for over thirty years, so I was armed with all my meds, and inhalers and whatnot. But Garrett was off work for a month and he never misses work. It knocked him for a loop. We didn’t do much during March and thank goodness for our neighbor. Rick cut wood for us to burn in our fireplace and we were able to keep the house warm. It was very cold here this winter and the wind was blowing in a strange direction that kept our house cold for long periods of time. It was hard to heat.
Our girl that cleans for us, did some grocery shopping for us, but we had very little appetite. We were a mess for a long time.
After three weeks of coughing and fighting the pneumonia, I was starting to recover and then on the fourth week, ,I woke up blind in my right eye!!!!!!!!!!!!
I went to three doctors in one day and was told that I have Optic Neuritis. It is inflammation in the optic nerve at the back of the eye. I had a MRI done the next day….really couldn’t believe how fast I was able to get into that,,,,,and was told that I don’t have MS. I didn’t even know that was on the menu!! I was told that my eyesight would come back and that to give it time.
During all this, Garrett is feeling very weak from the flu and goes to see his doctor. They do all sorts of blood work on him and he is phoned and told to come into the office. He drops me at the hospital for the MRI and goes into the doc office. He is told that he has Hepatitis C and that is all. He has an appointment with a specialist in a YEAR!!
Can it get any better???
Now, I am dealing with blindness in my right eye and trying to keep the house and farm going in the winter time. We have chickens and dogs and pups. I am breeding other female bulldogs that people are wanting bred and selling hay and renting out our barn for storage. It is busy around here on a good day, but now it is all a pain due to the fact that we have health issues. Man this is getting strange.
So, now after 6 weeks of letting my eye try to heal itself, my good, left eye is losing sight. I get back to the specialist and he confirms that yes, I have inflammation in my other eye and he now wants me on meds. He orders IV for four days and then 5 days of oral pills. This is Prednisone and it knocks heck out of me. I have the IV in my arm for 4 days and a VON coming to the house and administering it. Then the pills are started and stopped on the long weekend. I end up with half of my left eye without sight due to the fact that I didn’t gradually come off of the meds. I am back at the specialist on Tuesday and he gives me another course of meds to gradually come off of.
I am telling you Ernie, this has been a strange journey that I have ever been on. I will never take my health for granted again and never my eyesight. I have appreciated so much in everyday life and I always say thank you for gifts…be they lovely sunsets or playing butterflies or running pups. Since we live out in the country, I relate to country things and I find them beautiful.
During all of this, I have forgotten about Garrett and what he is going through. Or really, what he is worried about and not going through. We are sitting and talking in the living room one evening and he says that he is alone in his disease and I am taken aback by that. I have been going through my own thing and really didn’t think about what he was going through.
So, I got onto the net and look up all I can about Hep C and make him sit and read a bunch of things on it. It helps with knowledge and he is a little calmer about it. But I still have him go and see his Doc about it and try to get a sooner app with the specialist. He is okay now with it and I am looking up more info for him.
It seems that a lot of people have Hep c and don’t know that they have it. You can get it so many ways and it is just a part of our make up, I guess. I haven’t been tested for it yet, but I am not worried about if I have it or not. I am dealing with this eye problem first and then I will see to the other.
So, ok, we are in March and April now and we have found about those problems and are dealing with it.
One of my female bulldogs comes into heat and I have a male that is living with a family that I ask to be returned here. Her name is Karen and she is a dog groomer in the city. They have had my bully male since Christmas and he is a year old. He is gorgeous so I want him to live in a home and eventually they will buy him from me when he is no longer needed for breeding.
I figure since she deals with dogs on a daily basis, she knows about disinfectants and keeping a clean place………………..wrong!
I have the male here for 3 days and then 5 days later, I have an out break of Parvo!! That is a desease that kills pups and it is a nasty thing. They get blood in their poop and they go to skin and bones. I lost 3 pups due to it and I am freaking out. Not only am I blind and can’t see if the poop has blood in it, I have to keep them separate from the others in a closed up house and it becomes a nightmare.
I have Julie come here and help clean everything. We have to constantly disinfect the floors, the towels, the backyard, the kitchen…..and everything. I am doing laundry three and four times a day, I am running to the vet with dying dogs and buying meds that are a fortune.
I consider sueing Karen for the loss of the three pups because two of them were mini females valued at $5800.00 each. But not only that, it is what they would have gone on to produce in litters and sales. So, she agrees to pay for my vet bills, which were $1150.00 but not to cover any other damages. I like her, and I don’t want to cause her any grief. Again, I am just wanting to get back to my old self and I guess I am feeling generous these days!!
Julie costs me for the two weeks that she was here cleaning and helping. She is my driver now for doc appointments and a good friend. I am feeling a little out of sorts with all of this and not liking the spot that I am in.
Ernie, it is one thing to be sick with pneumonia and another to be blind. I say blind, but I can see a little bit. I am seeing a weird world right now and the doctors have told me that I will have my normal sight again. But they don’t know how long it will take. I liken it to living in a twilight world and not being able to tell color or distance.
Oh, speaking of distance…..I thought I broke my thumb! I was trying to get a Cocker puppy inside out of the rain and he ducked when I went to grab him by the scruff of his neck. He was playing the dreaded game…..catch me if you can….and I was running around in the rain. Not a happy camper!! Anyways, I catch him, but not before I power drive my thumb into the ground. I think my neighbors heard the few choice words that I said!
For a few days my thumb just kept getting stiffer and larger. Then, Garrett drives me to the hospital for xrays. It is not broken but very sprained. I have to wrap it up and try not to use it……yah right!
The pup finds a new home…..thank goodness and when I go onto steroids, my thumb is the first to heal!! Finally, a bonus!
So, 2011 has not proven to be a stellar year, so far! We are sick, injured and receiving rotten news left, right and centre. I am starting to think that there is something more to this and start to do some research again online.
I find a Ghost removal team and call them. They are able to rid or cleanse a home and property of spirits that are causing harm or blockages. It was really neat Ernie. I don’t know if you believe in such things but it was interesting.
Over the phone in the first conversation, Wendy asks me if she can send her Spirit Guides here and look around. They don’t interfere with anyone or anything. But I told her to tell them to make their presence known to me but she says that they will not.
She calls me back in 15 minutes and tells me that I have a lot of Indians on the land and that there are also 3 dark entities here. The dark ones are not a good thing to have around and they seem to be obstructing things that are happening around the place.
Well, a couple of days later, Wendy and her husband Mike come here and all 4 of us sit at the dining room table. She talks with the Indians and they capture the dark three that were in the house with us. We had to wait for the Chief Indian to go up to the barn and get about 15 more woman and kids.
I have these timer/sprayers around my house, Ernie. When people are coming over, I turn all 6 of them on, due to the fact that we have so many dogs in the house. And the sprayers smell great. They are not motion sensitive, they are on a timer. Well, as Wendy was sending them into the light, the kids were walking past one of the sprayers and pushing the little button on it. It sprayed about 8 or 9 times in a row and then Wendy said they had all left.
I thought maybe the batteries were going on it, but Ernie, it has been on since that day and it has never done that again! I have left it on and it sprays every 30 minutes around the clock. But it has never sprayed 8 or 9 times in a row again. It was so funny! I was sitting there laughing, thinking that the kids were all walking by it and pressing the button as they passed it. Too funny!!
I don’t know if you believe in stuff like this but it does seem to have worked here. We sold 4 pups the weekend following the visit. We hadn’t had sells like that ever. The air seems clearer here now and not so oppressed. We have money coming in again, and it was at a standstill for over 5 years. That is why I did this…..we were sick on not making any money on ANYTHING that we did or pursued. It was awful. So I thought it might have been something other than us. And it looks like that was the way to think.
I am a believer of many things. This world is a large place and there is room for a lot of things. So, why not?
So, now some happier stuff. I need to have happy in my life!
We are no longer hay farmers. Last year we were talking with our neighbour from out back and he is a pig farmer. He wanted to lease our land and plant corn, wheat and soya on it….over three years. He also injects his pig manure into the ground as a fertilizer. ……what a stink!!!!
Last fall, Frank and his brother came here and plowed under all our hay. They fertilized and left huge ruts in our laneway from their huge tractors. They are going to send over some truckloads of stone to fill in the trenches and repair it as best they can.
I purchased an incubator a few months ago and raised 6 new chickens out of it. Our friend Jim gave me some eggs to try it out with, but the duck eggs didn’t hatch or the Checkers. So now we have two month old chickens out with the rest of them.
By the end of May, we are picking up 23 more chickens. I have a running ad on the computer for unwanted chickens. I get emails every once in a while from people that are not wanting their chickens anymore. I will take them as long as they aren’t too old and that they are still laying eggs. Our girls are about 3 years old now and still going strong! We want to have about 200 -300 chickens here eventually and sell eggs.
The old chickens are supposed to be gathered up and taken to the meat packer plant that we took our rabbits to. But I like them too much to do that. They would be dog food here, as they would be tough old birds!!
So, we are going to keep one rooster and make a breeding area in the kennel for him and his ladies! The girls will be changed out every few weeks. I can hold 42 eggs in the incubator and they hatch every 21 days or so. That is a lot of chickens!!
That is the plan anyways. We will see how it goes. But it is like everything else in life….the best laid plans….
Still on a happy note….I have a lot of material for new books from all of this. I have a book that I am adding short stories to. It is about the everyday life of a dog breeder,,,,,me,,,,and my pack. I am just adding funny stories when they happen, explainations as to why I am in this life, and funny things that people email or phone me with. Again, it is just a fluff book that I hope to publish…get my feet wet.
Then I have another book idea about the stuff that I am going through with the sightlessness. But of course it will have a spin on it and I go down a different path with it.
All in all I think I have material for 15 or 18 books now.
I have asked Garrett to build or have built, a deck on the back of our house. We have French doors that lead out to a grassy hill and then the yard. I would love a deck that I could go outside and sit with my laptop and write. I don’t write these books by hand, they are all done on the computer.
I really feel a calling to do this now Ernie. I wonder why, at age 54 I am taking it back up. I was writing when I was 10 – 17 years old and then stopped. It is strange how things come back around.
I am having Julie paint my office a gold color instead of the terracotta color that it is right now. And we have a green bedroom that we are both sick of, so it will be painted a grey color. Now that I am writing, I want to make my office comfy and inviting, since I spend a lot of time in there. And I don’t know when I will get the deck built.
Julie likes to paint, so she has said that she will do the painting in here. It was done almost eight years ago, so I guess it is time to refresh.
Well Ernie, I think I have covered a lot of different subjects and maybe put you to sleep in the process. J
I hope that you are doing well and that you like your new place. I understand about you wanting to move up in the world. I think it was the first place that you choose when you arrived in BC and then you had time to scope out other residences. You took your time looking around for a better place and found it, by the sounds of it.
I hope that you are ok and that you are filling your days. Would you be interested in proof reading my books when I have some drafts put together? I was hoping to have one done by July 1st, my birthday, but this sight thing sort of put my plans back a bit.
I will send you as soon as I print it off my computer if you are interested in reading it.
Take care, my friend.




